Well, I’ve had a great summer and it’s not over yet! Still got Hampton Court Beer and Jazz Festival and the Animal Windfest in Poole to attend! It’s amazing being single for the first time since 1986! I’ve been able to make decisions for myself without consulting anyone else and it feels GREAT! Yes, I have my children and they continue to be my priority but the times they are with their father my time is my own to do what I like and to spend time with whom I like.
I don’t think I’ve laughed so hard as I have this summer and I certainly haven’t have this much fun (with clothes on ;o)) for a very long time! I feel liberated and rejuvenated (and look, so I’ve been told, years younger!).
I give thanks to my friends both single and married, male and female for being on this journey of self re-discovery with me. I am finding myself again, the young (well a girl can dream can’t she!) woman who immersed herself in life, in falling in love, getting a mortgage and getting married, having and raising her family, working and somehow losing herself little by little along the way.
There is no one to frown at my antics, my crazy singing and dancing, my nothing off limits conversations with friends, staying up far too late and paying the price the next morning. I am enjoying having my bed to myself and not having to listen to a snoring partner (maybe one day I’ll miss that!). I’m enjoying being able to read my book and listen to my music until whatever time I choose. I’m having a lot of fun rediscovering the pleasures of being single….. and I am pleased not to have been abandoned by my married friends too as I have now become that rather awkward creature the mid life single woman!
I am getting to know myself again and this feels good. I am asking myself the question “What do I want, really want for my life, for my future, for ME”?